I am the daughter of a mother with dysphagia
I wonder if there is something more to do for her
I hear the sounds she makes when she swallows
I see the pain in her eyes with every drink she takes
I want to just stop the pain and help her
I am the daughter of a mother with dysphagia

I pretend she is like she used to be
I feel she hates me for not helping her
I touch her face to try to help her
I worry that I am only making things worse
I cry because I know there is nothing I can do
I am the daughter of a mother with dysphagia

I understand what the speech pathologist tells me
I say are you sure there is nothing else
I dream of hearing about a cure for her dysphagia
I try to push this out of my head and do things that are possible
I hope she only realizes the anguish I live in because of her pain
I am the daughter of a mother with dysphagia

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This week was very similar to last week. I am basically doing the same thing. For this genre I intend to use the voice of the client’s family. I am considering using a poem of some other type (probably an “I am” poem. This is a very difficult voice for me to use. It is sometimes hard for me to put myself in the position of another. I have been thinking of ways to do this all week and I have decided on the “I am”. Earlier in the week when I was just waking up I thought of a really good idea but I could not remember what it was so I thought I would give it time because it would eventually come to me but I still do not remember so I have given up on whatever idea it was that I had.
I have also decide that my PowerPoint presentation is going to be my unifying genre so next week I am going to need to do a different genre and then do some work on my PowerPoint so it can be the unifier.
I really cannot think of anything else to write about in my journal this week, I am beginning to get so stressed and I am so tired that I cannot even think about what to write in this journal.